Tomorrow I am heading to the hospital at 7 am to be induced. My hospital bag is packed, my mom is here, and my patience for being hot, swollen, and uncomfortable is just about spent - I am ready. Hopefully everything with go smoothly tomorrow. The memories of Jack's fast - but painful - labor and delivery are flooding back to me and making me extremely nervous. I have been praying that this labor and delivery will be a little more like Layla's - blissfully numb. Cross your fingers for me.
I have been trying to cram in as much sleep as possible this last week but it seems to not be in the cards for me. Jack has been waking up at night for the most random reasons ("my blanket fell off" "I need some water" "there are monsters in my room") and now Layla is sick. I think sleep is officially a good memory, at least for the next few months.
Even if my kids were sleeping well, I am getting so anxious about having a newborn that I don't think I could sleep soundly even if I wanted to. I keep telling myself that I have done this before - two times! It's not rocket science, it's just a little baby. But truthfully...newborns scare me (at first) and until I get into a comfortable routine, I always feel like my life is spinning out of control. And I hate that feeling. I just have to remember that it gets easier and that slowly life returns to normal - or at least to a new kind of normal.
Well, wish me luck! Hopefully we will have some pictures to post of our little boy soon.
4 comments:
Best of luck. I would gladly take your newborn for you and reluctantly give him back. Ah, there is nothing better than a newborn! I'll be thinking of you and waiting (not patiently) for pictures!
Good luck!! You'll do awesome! Can't wait to see pictures.
I've been thinking about you a lot lately. Don't worry, you can do this! :) Trust me, it all goes by much too quickly! My little ones are already 5 months this week and I can't even believe it! It makes me so sad to see them grow so quickly, especially knowing they are my last ones. No, we aren't sleeping yet either, and still working on a nap routine, but that will come too - one day. :) Best of luck tomorrow, you'll do great - at least you know you won't have to have both types of delivery at once, that should give you some comfort! :) Can't wait to see pics!
i can't wait! i hope it is a blissfully numb experience! we are looking forward to meeting him!
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